Probably getting divorced..

Husband left me a few weeks ago, but had unprotected sex before that. And yes stupidly after that too because I thought he was coming back to me… well, starting to get light positives and completely devastated honestly. I’m just now starting to go a day or so without completely breaking down about him refusing to come home, and now this 😩 it’s pretty clear he wants to not come home and he refuses to make any decision whether he ever will or not. I’m in a horrible headspace and have no idea what to do right now. Adding- we also have a daughter who is turning 4 in two weeks, a son who will be 3 in December, and an almost 6 month old baby 🥺😩