Birth experience

Im a first time mom. I live through the memories of my baby’s birth. I remember when I was pushing and when I pushed him out it was the weirdest feeling. Felt like I pushed out my internal organs. I felt so much relief from it but also was very hard bc they first put him on my chest then rushed him to the in room incubator and paged pediatrics and while I was laying there I felt in a frantic bc there was nothing I could do and I was left alone with the doctor basically because the baby’s dad went over to see him and I really just felt out of the loop. It’s been a few months since his birth but I don’t think I will ever forget that part. Or any of it really.