Im so tired . Im sad and mean and angry everyday . At the world . Why did god give me a baby knowing how sad i already was at life. Why did it allow me to have hormones where it could make me feel sadder angrier and a burdon knowing beforehand i already didnt want to continue. I dont want to live anymore but i feel like i have too. I don’t care about anything . Im so numb right now . Nothing i do is a positive impact why am i here? Im sad everyday god and i smile because i don’t want anyone constantly asking me questions. How did i get here ? I use to drink this away , at lease until i woke up the next day feeling the same thing and i can do it all again. Now i cant drink , i really want this hurt to stop. Any advice from anyone on an outlet ? I feel like im running out of options.