Feeling guilty

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I lost my baby girl 3 months ago at 31 weeks pregnant she only lived for half an hour, it hurts so much I think of her every minute and i will never forget her, but sometimes i go out with my husband or friends and have fun and laugh, but afterwards I feel so so guilty, how can i have fun and my baby not with me it's the worst feeling ever, this is never supposed to happened 😔💔