Processing my Miscarraige 💔

Honestly I don’t know how to take it in, with my other miscarriages i always acted out in anger….. I’ve just been trying to avoid the feelings but I honestly really wanna just breakdown & talk to someone about it, I don’t know how though.

I bought a lovey & outfits for when I told my husband & I’ve been carrying the lovey around a bit today & honestly sleeping with it tonight. Idk how to cope i feel so lost….. It doesn’t make sense how I could get something so special just to lose it…. Im just so confused with my emotions & trying to take it in….. I was getting so excited.