36+2 BREECH

We’ve tried for two years for this baby and after four rounds of clomid and two miscarriages I feel like I have no right to feel disappointed or discouraged and should always be grateful for the experience.

But I am 36+2 and just confirmed baby is still breech, bottom down legs to head. So I am scheduled for a ECV with an induction to follow (or c-section if version fails) 10/24. I feel like such a failure, I don’t know what’s wrong or why he doesn’t want to flip. I’ve been going to the chiropractor and doing stretches and exercises that are supposed to help turn him since 31/32 weeks. I’m a fingertip dilated and my OB said I’d be further if his head was actually putting pressure on my cervix.

But I feel horrible for feeling like this because at least I have a baby. Right? Am I allowed to feel sad or am I being ungrateful?