I have been dating my boyfriend 2 1/2 years and by August 2021. (He proposed) things were great. Sold my house moved in with him. A year later I bought a house (3 weeks ago) we moved in together (end of sept 2022). For the past 14 months he has not wanted to sleep with me. He is diabetic type one and is going to doctor for shots because it has caused issues with sex drive/energy level. When we found out I knew it would be a process. I wanted to give it time and be supportive. He was ashamed and embarrassed.

We fight over this every 3-4 weeks for the past year because I do not feel wanted by him. He claims I just want it more then him. I mean it's been 14 months. Don't feel like me getting upset every month I try is a big deal.

About 5 months ago I decided to shut down. I don't hug/kiss/snuggle/show any effection because I have nothing left to give. We argue so much I don't enjoy spending time with him and I crave that need for having a partner that is wanting to be active. I want that person that wants to have fun with me as I am a very outgoing person. Now I'm just shut down because I'm defeated and depressed that we can't enjoy each other's company.

We are both 35 years old and I feel like I'm wasting my time. Friends/family ask when is the wedding.. I think we both pretend it's working when we both are not happy.

Instead of telling me I'm an idiot I would appreciate some feed back that is constructive. What do you do when you love someone so much and it goes away but you want to love that person and it gets to the point of no return. Which I'm at. Thanks