So essentially, my long term partner and I (5 years) obviously started off very hot and heavy when we first met... I had never had troubles giving other people pleasure, it gave me confidence and I genuinely felt attractive doing so. We obvs kept sleeping together over the course of our relationship and sex was always so mind blowing, but we started skipping over foreplay bc we were just so into it. Over a year or two of some really deep depression and having to pretty much build myself up again from nothing... I'm really really nervous to do anything to him, whether it's just a hand job or whatever! I feel like I look weird doing so or I'll suck or something (pun unintended lol). In my head I truly want to pleasure him and I DO enjoy doing the acts themselves. I'm just super nervous to start foreplay or come onto him that somehow leads into a blowjob/whatever.

We have a healthy sex life, we would just like to do some more foreplay and I just get so nervous when the time comes! I'm quite a shy person but this is definitely not something I've never done before, I just need my confidence back!! How do I initiate stuff like this?

Thanks for reading this, I didn't feel comfortable posting this anywhere else