Worried

I posted yesterday about my local housing authority saying I was 2nd in place, to call in 30 days and they’d have some available.

I deleted the post because when I wrote it I was stressed and I guess I mis worded some things. Someone misunderstood me, called me a flake, and assumed I got the apartment and moved out in 2 weeks and back in with my bf. That’s not what I meant or what I did at all. I meant I had gotten an apartment last year before all this happened and was there for about a year. I moved in with my bf after he convinced me we’d have more time to spend together and well, things have went south. Hes been promising things and then never pulling through with them. Not helping me buy things for the baby, he’s made excuses. Yet buys video games and trading cards. He’s doing things and saying I’ve done them. My dad used to do that to my mom and it drove her crazy and things just got worse after my dad started playing games like that. Another thing is my bf told his mom I spent all of a gift card she gave us after him telling me it was mine for my birthday, we still split it anyway because we were on vacation, but he told her I spent it all and just because he wanted her to send another gift card for more money and I thought that was wrong of him. He said he liked things I said I liked and now he says he doesn’t like those things. Im often confused by him. I’ve learned my lesson and will not be interested in another relationship again. I didn’t date for years after my husband died, and idk I guess I was gullible and vulnerable after not being with someone for so long but definitely learned my lesson. And I just want to focus on my kids. But no, I didn’t mean I got an apartment and move back in with him that would be crazy of me!! I’ve been trying to talk to him and yesterday as I got home from grocery shopping, he was getting his shoes on for work and I waved at him and said hey and he completely ignored me. He looked up, but didn’t say anything. My son was rambling and talking to him about random stuff and he ignored my son (he’s 4 and autistic) and my son came to me in the other room and said “*brian’s not talking to me mama.” And I told him it’s ok, maybe he is busy and took him to his room to play with his toys with him to distract him.

That hurt me because my son didn’t do anything.

I called the housing authority again today, after calling yesterday. Yesterday they said I was 13 in line. But 30 days ago, they said I was 2nd (I live in a small town is why the lists aren’t very long) The guy that answered yesterday is usually not nice. The guy that answered this time has always been understanding, I explained what I was told and he said due to some emergent complications with 6 other applications, that I was moved to 13th in line but then he talked to his co worker and said they forgot I was pregnant and moved me down to 6th in line and to call back in a week to keep in touch and see if they can help sooner if something comes up. He did make me feel better as he said he wished more tenants were like me because they had no issues and I always had my apartment clean. I always felt like my apartment was cluttered lol.

What can I do about this silent treatment though? Just push through it? Should I start avoiding him? I don’t want to drop to his level. I’m still cooking him food for work. Should I continue doing that? I’m so confused and stressed. My heart has felt like it’s flipping to the point it takes my breath. I’ve been crying so much.

***im so sorry 😞 I have one child from my late partner, and am now pregnant with current bf. I’m needing an apartment/housing so I can move out because of how he’s been treating me. *** also, I meant learned my lesson as in I will never move in with someone I’ve known less than a year when I am financially stable and have my own roof over my head. That was very foolish of me and I should have know better. I also feel I do not want to be in a relationship again after this experience. I’m so sorry for the confusion