I had a conversation w my boyfriend about how it feels to me, that it’s a chore for him to post let alone take pictures with me. He told me “I don’t know what you want me to do”. In this case, I was already having insecurities that he was talking with his child’s birth mother. I looked through his phone, specifically just for that. In the mean time, I got a little snoopy. Which ended up getting me hurt. I saw explicit videos of him with his girlfriends before me. As well as pictures where he actually looked happy with them. Times where, you could tell it wasn’t forced for him to take pictures. Where as, we’ve been together 2 years. and he has maybe 10 total of me or me and him together. The last girl he was with, he was with her for about 8 months, 4 of those in jail. Yet he has more pictures with and of her than of me or me and him.

With going through his phone, I hurt myself. But I feel like I also may have clarified how he feels for me. In my mind at least.

Like I said to him, I just don’t feel wanted or appreciated by him. And I feel like going through his phone, even though it was my choice. Has shown that even more… What would you do? What are your thoughts? Break up? Try and talk it out again?