Should I feel guilty for feeling like I need to schedule for a C-section instead of unexpectedly let the baby come?

The thing is I’m a single mom, I have a 2 years old and my daughter which she’s with her dad he has for now. I live by myself with my 2 years old, I don’t truly have a “close friend” near me neither family. I haven’t talk to my family for like 2 years. Anyways I live over 2 hours from people I know.

I don’t know what am I going to do once I randomly start to get contractions and don’t know where to leave my 2 years old boy. The only thing I can think of is to know exactly when I’m going to have this baby. The only person I can think of is my daughter’s babysitter, I know her for the past 7 years I trust her with my kids. she is 2 hours away from me. I would have to drop my son to her a week before my schedule c section.

This is seriously more stress added for me, but I feel like I have no other options. Im all alone honestly, no friends no family, and I’m ok with that but in this time with my 2 years old and a upcoming newborn I’m more depressed than ever.

And let’s not mention I will be all by myself with a newborn at home. Im been going to therapy because I been super depressed during the entire pregnancy and I can’t just can’t imagine what’s waiting for me.