Okay so I am trying to stay calm but how the hell do you stay calm after this.

So I live in a rural town 4 hours from the city. Between here and there there are two hospitals that are pretty good but I was just told yesterday that I am too high risk for either! My BP is so wacky it'll be low one minute and high the next, I'm swollen beyond belief and have all the symptoms of pre-eclampsia. On top.of that we found out that my amniotic fluid level is low and baby is measuring at 3.5kg which is 40 weeks where I am 38 weeks tomorrow. I'm worried because my OB originally said yes as long as the anesthesiologist is okay. I spoke to him yesterday and he said as long as I give birth in two weeks he is okay with me delivering at the hospital near me. Well now the OB has changed his mind and has said he is not confident I'd make it off the table if something went wrong if I don't deliver in the city and that he won't induce me. Okay so I had a cry and accepted the fact that I can't deliver where I wanted and that my BP is a time bomb right now (I was still discharged btw) so he calls the hospital in the city last night for me to get a phone call and I got message saying I have an appointment in 2 weeks. 2 weeks!? I'll be due then and my body isn't coping now! So I called the referred hospital and explained the situation they all agreed that 2 weeks is way too long and the OB told them nothing about my complications just that I'm fat! So now I have an appointment on Thursday which means a day trip. I'm hoping they will just say to induce me because the stress along about the fluid, his size and my BP is just crazy! But I'm just having so many emotions right now, what if I go into labour before then this is my second baby it could go quick and I don't really feel comfortable with the OB here anymore after what he has said. How would you guys feel? My BMI is 34 and the cut off for the hospital here is 45 for reference.