Well I guess this is an update for what's been going on with us. I mainly need to tell someone because baby's dad is currently the only one I can talk to. While I know he's trying to help, it's not really making me feel any better.

I went for my anatomy scan yesterday. I've still been bleeding a lot. It has gotten so bad that, as embarrassing as this is, it's all I can do to keep blood from going everywhere, so I'm wearing adult diapers now. Pads just aren't collecting the blood enough and I'm tired of ruining clothes and sheets.

They of course looked at baby all over. They also looked at various parts of me. After speaking with the amazing ultrasound lady (I think she's more than a tech) and the dr coming in and out several times while I was there, it turns out I got some scary news.

First, baby has three cysts in his brain. He said they could be a sign of a chromosome abnormality but because I had genetic testing done that came back low risk, it's not super likely, but still possible.

Second is that my sch came back and is again, large. At this point, he is now concerned it could rip the placenta from the uterine wall. He also wants me to come more frequently now for growth scans because the sch could cause problems with baby growing.

Third, apparently I have blood mixed in with my amniotic fluid. This is a concern because he says it could cause early rupture of my membranes.

And all of this "cramping" I've been having, they are now calling contractions. Not even Braxton Hicks.

I just don't know what to do. I'm glad I got some answers because there was a couple weeks where they couldn't tell me where bleeding was coming from. It's just really not the kind of news I was expecting. They are keeping me on pelvic rest and limited standing/lifting. I have been using progesterone daily as ordered. At this point, I don't know what else I can do.

Thanks for reading if you did. I guess for now, I'll just keep following orders and prepare as best I can for baby to come way early. I just hope he stays growing inside me until the point of viability. At least then, he will have a chance. I'm so heartbroken and scared.