This morning I was just waking up from a night of barely sleeping when my husband started asking me a bunch of questions. My daughter has been sleeping well and I’m the one who gets up with her because I don’t work.

I’ve been getting clothes ready to sell in a sale this week. Yesterday, today and part of tomorrow are drop off days for it. A friend of mine is also selling in the sale. My husband has asked me multiple times a day for the past three days if my friend and I are doing the drop off together. Each time I’ve told him she isn’t ready so no we’re not. Then he asks again I tell him again. 😄 This morning he kept asking me over and over all the while my daughter is going “MOMMA! MOMMA! MOMMA!” So I told him “okay I will get in contact with her and ask her again”. I said it a little firmer than I meant to. I apologized for how it came out. He huffed and told me “just trying to help” and I told him he does a great job, he’s just asked me so much I don’t feel like he’s listening to me. He then tells me “I’m just trying to help you even if you don’t want the help”. What? Huh? So I just let him go as it was too early to dealing with bickering.

I’ve tried to explain to him the mental load that moms deal with and he doesn’t get it. Like I get frustrated when I’m overwhelmed with questions. He’s always asking me questions. He doesn’t do anything for our toddler unless he asks me a question first “what do you want her to eat?” “Do you want her to nap now?” “What clothes do you want her to wear?” All day I’m dealing with keeping her alive and he works from home so he’s always asking me questions.

He also get cranky when he’s sick. We’ve both had sinus infections the past week. He called in for antibiotics immediately for his and called this morning for more of them. I’ve just been going through the motions because being a mom doesn’t stop. But I’m not allowed to slip at all. Once I do he gets pouty. So not only mental load of motherhood but anxiety of don’t something once and him sitting me down to tell me I need to work on it.

I’m exhausted from always being inadequate.