I’m 5w5d. I’ve known I’m pregnant for three weeks. In that three weeks, the amount of anxiety I’ve had is outrageous.

1) I freaked out because my tests weren’t getting darker. Despite my betas more than doubling in 48 hrs.

2) I keep spotting after sex, which I know is normal. But I am SO tired of inspecting my toilet paper like it’s a science experiment. Literally wouldn’t have even noticed if I didn’t flash a flashlight on it.

3) I’m freaked out because I barely have symptoms besides being tired, bloating, and backaches.

RPL has stolen the joy out of every pregnancy after. It’s cruel. It’s unfair.

I don’t know what I’m looking for with this. I guess just to vent. Maybe some reassurance. Or both.

I’m just so frustrated.