I drove myself to hospital from work because I was having preeclampsia symptoms as well as a sharp abdominal pain. Sure enough my BP was hiiiigh as snoop dog; my son’s heart tracing was not reactive and I was 35w6d.

Had emergent c/s. Meconium ; silent abruption; son weighed 4lb 10oz and 16.3 inches long. PP hemorrhage; IUGR. He was on CPAP for 24 hours and now room air but not feeding well.

I have 2 other kids and not much support - I’m gonna see my sweet NICU baby boy later today.

Im having PP depression/anxiety as well. My Dr is on top of it. I feel safe and healthy just teary eyed. Not much milk has come in but I expressed maybe 2-3mL of colostrum today. I was readmitted for stroke/seizure level BPs and I kept getting asked about the father.

It’s just been hard y’all. I got my tubes removed. I don’t have anything set up for my new baby. I have no energy and just feel like I’m going in circles and getting nothing done. Anyways - thanks if you’ve read this far.

Any kind words / funny memes / jokes would surely be welcomed.

TIA glow community!