Hi everyone I currently study and work full time. Its part of my course as I am training to be a priest. I'm starting to feel overwhelmed with nerves and the thought of having to look after a baby on my home. I am married and have a husband but we both are studying and working so I am just worried I will be forced to take a year off maternity leave whilst my husband will continue working and studying. My husband and I only get 1 day off so thats practically the only time we get and sometimes in the evening. I'm jus concerned part of the course you have to be away some weeks for residential and you have to be away some weekends I'm jus concerned as Saturday is our only day off and I don't want to feel like I'm looking after a baby by myself I did say to my husband before this happened that my fear was that I'd be left at home with a baby all the time and I don't want that. Somebody help me I really don't know what to do (previously I had an ectopic hence why I haven't gone back on contraception) ive tried combined pills but couldnt function 1 I had an allergic reaction and the other made me depressed.

I'm really struggling with the thought that I'd be raising a baby on my own while my husband is working and studying full time and I'll be a housewife this is my biggest fear and always has. I am struggling with the course I'm not so much academic but I don't want to be stuck at home with a baby all the time. I know people say a baby is different so i will love my baby and things will be different but I have this overwhelming fear because hes a man and thinks like a man he feels like thats normal for a woman to look after the baby and the man sort of carry on but has a baby but in a way hardly has anything to do with that baby.