So I joined this app yesterday...

I'll be 33 in January. My husband is also 33. I was pregnant once about 10 years go, but I miscarried..

Idk where to start, or if this is even the right place to post, but I need to talk yall haha.

I've been wanting to be a mom since forever, I'm talking.. in my teens still pretending my baby doll was real lol.

There literally nothing I find more..worthwhile then being pregnant, having and raising my own little crotch goblinb🧡

So let's see..um i just stopped taking birth control about 2or 3 weeks ago(I was put on it to stop me from hemmoraging)I do have cysts on my ovaries, I might have endoromitrits as well, but in Ohio they don't have that surgery to see if I have it..I'm taking prenatal. I have been a smoker since I was 17ish. I have Dr appt Monday the 21st to talk abt my meds switching, start to take steps to stop smoking.

I do have history of depression/suicide, but went and got help, hence the meds.

There was a period of about a year, after I miscarried, that I was desperat for a baby, and was just ttc.

I only had certain doners, they knew what I was trying to do, I didn't want anything from them but a baby lol

After a year of ttc, I gave up.

A year passed without any sex.

Then one day my period didn't stop.

I was in extreme pain no matter what, I was bleeding like a stuffed pig.

Took 4 month and 4 different drs, before I got a female Dr and she believed me. That's how I found out I might have Enduro and cysts on my ovaries.

The only thing that stopped the hemmoraging was birth control.

I was fine with it bc I wasn't ttc, I wasn't having sex, so it was chill.

At 29 I met and started dating my husband, we got married summer of 22. Weve been ttc for just a few weeks now.

I guess I'm just nervous about it all.

I have a history of not being able to get preggo, I also have a history of hemmoraging. And a history of false pregnancies.

I haven't had a period/bled since I stopped taking my bc. I had some discharge, like the kind you get before you start a period, but no actually bleeding

I did have some light spottingfor a little while the day after we had sex.

Because of my history of false pregnancys I'm scared to take a pregnancy test lol.

I guess that's it.

Thanks for coming to my scared rant talk.