We have so many unresolved issues that I’m irritated by him almost every time I’m around him.

I’m impatient too. I don’t find his jokes funny anymore, don’t like when he cuddles me, etc. I honestly don’t even enjoy his presence 🥲 To be clear, I don’t want to be like this. I want to enjoy spending time together like we used to. We used to have so much fun. Now, I hate when he has a day off because I know I’ll be overwhelmed and we’ll find something to argue about. I’m not picking fights or being mean but I do get noticeably annoyed by him.

This sucks beyond belief because it wasn’t always like this. For the past seven months, we’ve been doing really GOOD. Then, I had my third miscarriage this month, his mom started up her abusive tactics again, and he started falling back on unhealthy behaviors (like being so defensive every disagreement that he won’t listen to my opinion at all).

We JUST got married, this past March, and we’re young too. We both admitted to the other that we should’ve waited a little longer and weren’t ready but I was pregnant and he’s a good man who I love so we eloped. We had a wedding planned already but it had to get canceled for other reasons. Then I miscarried. We were heartbroken but went through it together.

I just don’t know what to do. I don’t want to divorce because I feel like we’re one soul and have a little hope things will get better but I don’t know. Does anyone have any advice on how to repair things? We’re starting couples counseling and individual therapy next month. I want to try to fix things first and then, if it just won’t work, I’ll divorce him. I’m saying that before anyone says to just split up.