Okay so I’m horrible at trying to explain. Or even trying to begin. This app is the only app I feel comfortable in explaining myself. Since I don’t have supporting friends. Or family to lean on. And I mean no one not one single soul has asked “ how are you feeling” “are you okay” no one. Even when I go MIA for weeks. And when i try to explain myself it’s *circuits* I have dealt with so much mental pain that honestly it’s so much. From being sexually assaulted as a child, husband having an emotional affair last summer, Sexual harassment at work, being stalked by mother in law best friend, dealing with a narcissistic mother in law and family. Dealing with how to trust my own mother. To not having any support from friends. Envious family members who for some reason are envious and

Love to show it around me. For what? Why? What good does that make you.? No one has visited me or meet up at the nearest biggest town between us to catch up even my own family! The call and say they’re at such and such place and it’s 10 minutes away from me and they don’t invite me to come. Nothing. I feel alone. And as much as I try to be strong and move on I can’t. The damage has been done. I care too much about others that I don’t even care about myself. I wish it was easy to move on and put things in the past. I just need to vent and hopes someone would understand my pain.