Does anyone or has anyone been in a similar situation it just helps to know I can make it by hearing relatable stories. I’ve been in a toxic relationship since 2015 I left for a couple of months and ended up falling for it all over again. We have several kids together so that’s why it’s so hard for me cause he’s always been my person and despite the bad times every now and then we’ve had good times together as a family. I’m currently pregnant, 26 weeks. Gonna try to get to a homeless shelter but I always say I’m gonna do it I’m gonna leave and end up staying because the emotions are a lot especially when you have kids crying asking you questions you don’t have answers too. I live in a small town there is no homeless shelter here I would have to find the money to travel to SC (anderson is 30-40 miles away) or travel to Athens GA about 45 miles away. I have no family to help me no friends to help me. I really have no one, that isn’t an exaggeration. Last night he told me if I left he would follow me and try to find out where I am. Nothing new I’ve gotten a tpo but ended up dropping it. He tries to get a kitchen knife and threaten to kill himself and say it would be all my fault when he does. Then he says he’s gonna destroy my car and doesn’t care if I call the cops on him. He didn’t do it. Most of the times it’s threats to try and scare me into staying. I don’t think he would actually hurt me. But he has said he would before, never did. Even now as I write this he says I’m texting someone and he *knows* I’m texting someone that I’m a liar etc can I even get in a shelter if my id isn’t in that state I still haven’t changed nc to ga license and I lost it either way so it really doesn’t matter someone please give me words to guide me if I get the money and make it out there how will I know they’ll take me if they don’t I’ll have no where to go in the cold with my kids idk what to do be. I could never do the put money to the side thing cause of his job and him refusing to get off by a certain time so that I could have my own income. He could talk to his boss but anything that helps me out is such a struggle to him. He doesn’t give me money to buy me stuff like shampoo,razors etc so it’s not like I could save a couple dollars here or there. I literally have to find quarters and coins if I need something . I’m so lost