baby shower

is it weird to help plan your baby shower ? i honestly really don’t have someone in my life to throw it. my mother and sister offered but they are both extremely unreliable and i would still be paying for everything anyways. i’m honestly debating even having one because i don’t think any of my family will really show up besides a couple. as well as i only have a couple friends i could count on. my husband offered to help too because he knows it meant a lot to me but idk if that’s weird too ? it’s been really stressing me out and upsetting me because my grandmother even made a comment saying “idk who’s throwing her shower but i’m not” even though she threw 3 for my sister, my brothers girlfriends, and helped a lot with my cousins. i just feel like there’s nothing worth celebrating at this point..