So confused and need to vent

A few days ago I had a pregmate come up positive.

I’ve taken a couple of test since then and they are coming up negative.

I felt for my cervix this morning and it is VERY high and it’s so closed that I can’t even feel the opening at all. Also my period is a no show. I was supposed to get it on Christmas Day.

I have 3 kids and with every pregnancy, this was the position of my cervix.

I’m starting to wonder if that positive was a false one or if the rest of the bag of test are junk.

I’m feeling a little sad today because of this.

I’d like to say I know my body incredibly well. I’m well aware try cervix changes positions throughout my cycle. My cervix is only every this high and sealed when I’m pregnant.

Also, I tracked ovulation with bbt and strips. So it wasn’t later than I expected.

And I know that differents of a positive, indent, and an Evap seeing as I have 3 children and have been taking pregnancy tests for years. The positive started forming as the control line was starting to show and it stayed there.