my parents gaslight me and guilt trip me. my mom is verbally abusive and blames me for everything. she also yelled at me once to kill myself, how to do it, and what to do with my money when I do. my dad was being emotionally/verbally abused by my mom so he never stpod up for me. in fact, he started emotionally abusing me and my brother through guilt tripping, irrational disappointment, and gaslighting. he even told me once that my mom told me to kill myself because she loved me.

during covid, I would be yelled at for opening the fridge during power outtages so could never eat during those times which were frequent, and my parents would say for me not to do grocery shopping but would always make the excuses as to why they couldnt buy any of the food i asked for. so i ended up starving. my feet turned blue and my hair was falling out from lack of nutrients. I packed all of my stuff and left. my parents were upset that I left so they didn't talk to me or help me.

now that I have been living away from home for a year, my mom still tries to control me by demanding me to wear the exact clothing that she says and atill yells at me. my dad guilt trips me and tries to buy really fancy things for my old room to convince me to live with them.

it makes me repulsed.

anyone else have similar relationships with their parents?