UPDATE: So my ex finally left my house. He destroyed it, but he left. I’m extremely sad and I do miss him. I’m having so many mixed feelings. I’m really going through it. We have a 4 month old and I don’t want to be a single mom again but I also do want to deal with the aggressive behaviors. I hope I’m not being overly dramatic and that I’m making the right decisions.

Wednesday my ex and I had another issue, It went from calmly taking to WW3 because I finished his sentence. He says he flipped because I was being negative. He was saying that he wish I could get over…. And I said “get over everything?” And the next thing i know is he’s thrusting his fist in my face and then gets up and says “get the eff away from me, get the eff out of my face” I get up and walk down stairs with our daughter in my arms. He calls me back upstairs to tell me that he understands why I was pushed down steps and why someone choked me until I passed out (I was in an abusive marriage).

Well that was really the last straw for me. I waited until he went to work Friday and got my Childrens stuff and left the house. Only issue is the house is mines ! For some reason I’m feeling bad because it’s new years and next week is his birthday and I’m just sad. I feel like I’m doing him dirty. Of course he’s saying how he doesn’t want to start the new years without me and blah blah. Idk why I’m even thinking about his feelings.