My baby’s heart

Today I had my 20 week sonogram and my fiancé and I are just really sad and confused. Our little boy has a problem with his heart…his heart doesn’t have blood running through all the valves. And half of his heart is really small. I got a referral for a specialist and they should be calling soon. But I’m stressing out so bad. We are just so sad. So many things are running through my head and everything I read on it is bad. Not to mention I knew something was wrong when the sono lady asked me when I see my doctor next and it wasn’t for a few weeks and she said that she is gunna go talk to my doctor and see if she could see me today. I just knew I was tearing up before the doctor even came in. I’m so devastated and emotional. How am I not supposed to stress out. How do I get through this I’m so sad😭😭

My fiancé just bawled in my arms today. It was the first time I ever seen him cry like that and we have been together for three years.

I’m trying to stay strong for our one year old daughter but it’s so hard. I’m just so sad I haven’t stopped crying since the appointment.