times I go through a miscarriage it is not we who goes through this turmoil together it is me alone,

You see,

When I am bleeding and crying, I am bleeding and crying alone

We do not share this grief together

We only understand there’s a loss together

And I miscarried alone

all the while I didn’t make the babies alone when the babies passed I am alone to sit and think and talk to myself

I miscarried alone

I cry and pray myself to sleep

I ask for strength and forgiveness in loneliness

While continuing to miscarry alone

My heart has set on fire and it burns so much yet it never turns to ash because my love for hope is relentless

And yet still i miscarried alone

My heart grows tired, withered and weak

I am at an odds and I’m still here for my babies because I love them most

still I miscarried alone

I cannot pretend that my heart dosent feel ready to give up

When I miscarried I do so alone

My heart is cold and isolated

Open and raw and the blizzard of grief continues to sting open wounds because ..

When I miscarried, I miscarried alone

In the saddest darkest times of our life you left me to suffer a loss we made together alone

I miscarried alone