So I am 7 weeks pregnant and am having an abortion next week. I am surprisingly alright with it. I have thought about this for a week. Weighed out my options and concerns, talked to peer counselors, wrote letters to myself, to the baby and recorded myself saying why I want this. I'm 35, happily married and we are financially stable but I'm just not happy with this, I don't want to be pregnant anymore because I am absolutely miserable, I just know my mental health needs to take priority. My husbands supports me no matter what. And he just wants me to choose what's right for me. The only problem I am having is knowing I'm going to have to lie to all my family. They are very pro life and don't believe in abortion. So I'm going to have to lie and say I miscarried. I tell my mom alot so I'm going to have figure it all out. Thankfully my one cousin is very pro choice and her and I have been talking and she supports me. So I will have her and my husband to talk to if need be. Right now I just can't wait for my apt to get here and be done. Once this is done I'm going on birth control and my husbands going to try to get fixed. I know we sound bad but we really never wanted kids and just left it to be what happens will happen. I mean I've went over 10 years without ever getting pregnant. Just thought it would never happen. But not the way I feel this time I'm not taking any chances. This pregnancy made me realize I just don't want kids. After 14 years of us just being us it has been nice and it's nice to be free and not have to be responsible for another human being. Thanks for letting me vent and no judgement please.