So guys I’m in my second trimester pregnant with first baby! I’m overwhelmed and depressed I’m not happy at all in the situation I am, and yes I most probably put myself in this spot but I’ve been with my bf for about 8 years and became pregnant this year was not expecting to be it was a surprise but not a accident… unfortunately I’m miserable 😭 I don’t know if I’m wrong or right and don’t care I just want to be understood, so my bf is 35 yr old and I’m 28 he’s the baby of 5 older girls and he’s parents call him every single day to where it’s become annoying specially his dad… his father is a really really bad person bc I can see straight through him he has a way to manipulate my bf in so many ways and he knows it that I know it! I never say anything about it but now that I’m pregnant I’ve become too stressed about the situation, his father acts like a toddler mind you his almost 70! He has government help receives food stamps disability 2x checks and have a free nurse and assistance care giver at their home I mean their set for the remaining of their life … but the dad has a thing where his always asking for favors when he can do them him self so my bf goes all the way across town to do them but when I ask for something he throws a bitch fit and it gets to me bc when it comes to his dad he never says no to him for help but when I need help it’s always a “will see “ “idk maybe” ect ect! Anyway 3 days ago I got a call from his mom and she has been insisting on wanting to come stay over at my place just bc but unfortunately I’ve been wanting to be alone bc of my hyperemesis gravidarum is been bad🥺 so when I spoke to her I explained to her what was going on and I told her I’ll call you back on Friday to let you know if I’m feeling better ( my bf works in the oil field so he leaves for two days and I stay alone witch I don’t mind) so then Friday comes and I’m feeling straight up shit to the point I didn’t pick up the phone at all not even to my parents that had been calling! So I missed her call, so then Saturday after noon I was feeling a lot better but had a lot of things to do ( grocery shopping ect) and had forgotten about calling her back but I was assuming she’d figure it out why I didn’t answer… so on my bf had came back from work as he was sitting in the porch I over heard his convo with his father on speaker and I heard his father nagging and saying how I didn’t answer the phone to his wife and that I left her waiting and so much other stuff that I looked like a bad person as I walked by I just felt my bf evil stare at me! I felt overwhelmed… I new he’d pick a fight with me about it … then right before we were getting reading to leave to the grocery’s his mom called and his mother also told him that I didn’t answer her at this point I felt miserable 😩…so my bf was a having a few drinks while chatting on the phone with his parents … then when we were about to leave well while we were heading to the store I asked him I had woken up late bc of how badly I was feeling on Friday and had not eaten anything if he’d can make a quick stop to grab something quick and studfenky he started screaming at me on how we need to safe money ect ect that we can’t be eating out ect I was shocked I knew why he was acting like that with me bc I didn’t answer his mother on Friday! Have in mind we moved to a new place that I paid for bc he decided to leave he’s previous job… and on out previous apartment he stop paying rent for almost 2 years and was behind on his payment truck (! I’m self employed i make my own money from him & im a student) anyway after screaming at me I broke down and asked him are you punishing me bc I didn’t asneare you mothers call ! He stayed silent and literally hgave me the devils look ! From there he forcely stoped at McDonald’s and order me a $1 and a $1 drink just to feed my baby ! ( pregnant 18 weeks) moving on he stoped at the grocery’s and I told him I didn’t want to get off if he could go and he got off aggressively and upset and by the time he was inside I got off and went to the store then while I was shopping and looking him I got a call and said to “ look for a fucking ride” and I said to my self wow wtf ! Is he really leaving me here and he did ! My sister was just across the street and picked me up and drove me home when I came back he came and was still drinking ! I went ti bed to watch a movie 🍿 a while passed and he came in the room and accusing me that I had gotten his phone he was already drunk as he was accusing me he got on top on my and aggresly started to pull my phone away I beefed him to stop cried and scream at him to stop but he never did till I jumped out got my keys and left to my sisters …. At this point idk what to do anymore I’m miserable depressed and broken … he’s apologized but it’s not fair …. I can’t seem to look at him I have an anger town aeda him… idk what is their to come if I stay … his parents are more important than me and his baby and I don’t want that