Single mom by choice gitters

I’m 30 years old. I lost my mom in 2020 & I felt my world crumbling. At the time I was in a relationship with someone I thought was great & she was really supportive & caring. However every relationship can not survive grief & for one reason or another the relationship ended. I started to feel this extremely deep feeling of loneliness that eventually developed into emptiness. I buried myself into my work & even picked up a serving job to not feel so lonely. I wanted love in my life. Needed love in my life. I got a counselor I started therapy & I after some time I started to feel better. I saw the sun in the morning. Counseling made me think about my life & what I wanted. Where I saw myself & I saw myself as a mom loving my kids & creating so many memories as my mom did with me. So I decided to go after what I wanted. I started this ttc journey alone & even though I know it will be hard I embrace it all. I’ve had genetics testing, blood work, ultrasounds & now I’m looking for my donor. I’m so excited I can hardly contain myself. Having a baby & being a mom is literally all I can think about. I do have some fears though. I’m nervous because I’m doing ivf & sometimes I think what if it doesn’t work. I don’t want to waste more time when I know this is what I want. I’ve never been pregnant before & the what ifs scares me. I have names picked out & I’ve even started looking at baby clothes & car seats. I really hope ivf works for me & I become pregnant soon.