Hey ladies,

I'm so done,tired and mentally, emotionally and physically exhausted, I've been with my partner 9 years we have two children, I work, well ATM I'm on maternity, currently having issue with them, drs have placed me on sick as their causing me so much grieve and affectibg my mental health. This last week has been so hard on me. Everything that's done or I word something wrong he becomes an ass and gets nasty about, I've sat in the living room the other night as we would watch stuff to do with building cob houses, so I had sorted the kids and I had sat there with a movie on, wasn't an issue at first but he decided to start and called me a freak for being in the living whilst he went to sleep. Didn't ask me to leave,this all came about because I didn't help him as he suffered with his head. He calls me cruel for leaving him like it, I literally do everything from the house,kids,cleaning, sorting finances and debts, going to baby groups, aswell as sorting out solicitor and grievance due to work. That's doesn't include the crap he's hidden i.e money owed etc. I sat and had a chat with last night and about how I can't keep living like this, every time there's a disagreement he hides in his office,doesn't spend time much or some nights any time with the kids. Tonight he's had crap from work and has told he is quitting without another job to walk into. I completely forgot to go get some more snack a jacks as I had been snacking on them and made a light lunch, he came home was fine, went to start tea, then decided to being up the snack a jacks and I apologized and explained I went to the shop and forgot to pick up more. He got asses about it why are you not cooking and making your self food why you always eating my stuff. I didn't care about him wanting to be a child over food. There was still some left and I said I would replace them tomorrow. I miss worded what I said I was meant to say I've been eating them in the mornings,but instead I said I've had them this morning,I have had a manic day with baby and my work, drs etc. I apologize instantly and said that wasn't what I was meant to say, he responded with see you sat all this sh*t and your already dismissing what I said,same old you. He then decided he's going off for a drive after saying he was making tea,which it was already 7pm and I have our eldest in bed half past 8, so I'm rushing around because he decided to act this way, he's locked himself in the office I went in once with baby and let him know I'm settling her down, he hasn't come out to spend time with her etc. When he gets this way he gets to escape and not furfil his responsibility yet me I try that and I'm in the wrong,I'm a bad parent I don't care about him or the kids. I literally feel like a single parent. He said he is sick of all the people around him including work, so I said fine I will sort out about not being around you anymore as I'm done with this childish bs. Now I'm sat here feeling guilty. He literally sits writing stuff In his pad and then reading it to me going Im keeping a diary of everything. I am in such a mess, I'm confused,can't focus and feel like in in the wrong. Help me ladies. I need a pick me up,I don't feel loved,wanted or attractive 🥺🥺