I gave him an out

So I'm disabled. I lost the genetic lottery shit happens 😂 and the disability can cause issues like pain and dislocations and a bunch of other stuff. I was rocking an 11 year stretch of no dislocations and met my partner in this time and I've talked to him about dislocations and told him the process needed just in case so by all means he was aware of it. He has also seen me struggling from my condition before which can make me feel somewhat embarrassed at times even though I have accepted my condition for what it is it can still feel vulnerable letting someone see it when I'm supposedly "in the prime of my life".

Anyway idk if you noticed but I said I WAS rocking an 11 year gap 😅 I dislocated a week ago. Kneecap. Had to lay in the freezing cold waiting for an ambulance whilst my partner looked on. Now I'm rocking crutches and a splint and struggling and it's felt so vulnerable letting him see what feels like a really "ugly" side of this. I felt ashamed and embarrassed and weak because here I was young and relatively healthy unable to get down TWO steps without him. I burst into tears and I admit I looked at him and asked if he still wanted to be with me. If he still wanted me to have his kids. I told him I'd understand if he didn't because it's one thing to talk about this scenario but he was finally SEEING it. And don't get me wrong I've made him super informed of the risks but again I know what it's like to finally see it and some folks don't fully believe me. I've lost people from this. And I know I'm deserving of love but in that moment I couldn't bare to think he was seeing me in a new light and regretting things.

He looked at me like I was insane and without hesitation went "yeah of course! Why would this change anything!?" And shook his head at me like I was daft to think. And yeah I know some folks would say of course he does that's bare minimum or whatever but again my reality is a lot for people who have never had a firsthand experience and I wanted him to still be ok with it because it won't get better anytime soon. And he's ready for it all. Good and bad. It felt so good to know he's really seen what can happen and accepting it wasn't even a question for him.