I’m very upset….

So I just had a miscarriage a couple weeks ago after having quadrupled HCG, 3 separate ultrasounds that confirmed a healthy fetus…heartbeat and all….dates all matching. And then POOF….baby stopped growing/heart stopped. Out of nowhere…:then come to find out, that these suppositories I took for “PH balancing” called boric acid is super toxic to the fetus and almost always will cause a miscarriage there’s NO WARNING on the label it should be pregnancy category X because it’s toxic and deadly…I’m so mortified…it’s something I caused, I know this for sure…and I wanted this pregnancy so bad…I feel so guilty and sad I can’t bring myself to tell my husband