I would be 14 weeks today 😞

There is so much I don't know or understand. They could not tell how far along the baby was when it died. I wasn't seen by my Dr till I was 10 weeks and he couldn't find a heart beat with the Doppler which he said could be normal some baby's are just harder to pick up with those. At 11 weeks we went in for our first ultrasound, that's when we learned that everything was wrong and baby wasn't alive anymore. They thought it was a molar pregnancy. Then when I was 12 weeks I had a D&C. The Dr said that she didn't see any fetal tissue and it looked odd and she wasn't sure what happened so she sent it to pathology. Now pathology is still finishing their results but they said it wasn't a molar pregnancy that that tissue was the baby. That the baby had been left so long and was swollen that it looked like a molar.

I'm left worried about what my baby went through and why this happened. I may never know but it makes me feel sick and I can't stop thinking about my baby. We were all so excited about this baby it was supposed to be my last and the completion of our family. Also I tend to have HG with my pregnancys and this one was no different so it's hard knowing that I went through the really hard morning sickness without getting a baby and if we want to try again I'll have to go through it all again hoping things go better.

I really want to have another baby but I don't know if I can do this anymore.