Venting/Advice

My fiancé and I loss our son unexpectedly after birth at 39 weeks 2 days. We have been together for four years and engaged for 2. However we called the engagement off about three months before we found out we were expecting. We just recently decided to get married and planned for the wedding date to be the same: 5/13/2023.

Today me and his cousin were talking. We are really close. She was talking about how she made herself “squirt” for the first time. She asked me when was the first time I “squirted” and I told her I was a teenager the first time I made myself.

My fiancé then asks me the question again and I tell him. And he tells me not to take it the wrong way but I am nothing special because I left nothing for my husband to enjoy on his own. And it just triggered me because it reminded me of a reason why I called off the engagement in the first place. And I said well you couldn’t possibly have thought you were the first person who made me squirt. And now he is upset and threatening to leave me. And I am just wondering if I should just let him. I mean do I really want a husband who straight up just tells me I’m nothing special.