So.. I’m writing bc there is a guy who I have been having sex with..

Well let me bring you back in time

We were first in college freshman year.. we hung out a lot.. he introduced me to his friends that kind of thing.. then I started developing feelings.

Only to find out this is the guy who took my first kiss had cheated on his gf with me.

Just recently he sent me a long apologetic paragraph around 3am. I forgave bc I am a Christian and that is what we do plus I figured he was conflicted between me and his now ex— liking us both.

However, we have been hooking up. I know I know but after the whole situation I prayed to God for him. I really did. And weird as it sounds I feel like God brought him back in my life.

Now yes we have sex but also I spend so much time in his dorm. Either sex or not we are very intimate especially emotionally.

He invites me to his basketball games, we went to the library together, had brunch, I invited him to my volleyball games. I even told him that I had gotten SA before and he opened up and told me he got SA as well.

He would always text me and ask me at least 3 times lol how is my day or what am I doing.

I made sure to ask a mutual friend we have if this guy is making me a rebound but our mutual friend told me that the guy is a genuine person.

Besides that the sex is hard!!! I mean for me it feels like pain and pleasure. How do I overcome the pain part of that ?

Christians and people of other faiths or even if you don’t have a faith..

Is this love? Or just a fantasy?