Been married 5 years. My husband heavy drank when he partied but was perfect sober. Sober wouldn’t look a girls way. We’ve had 3 kids, one passed away. Great marriage hardly any fights he’s very clingy and hates any man that even looks my way. Amazing daddy. But when he gets drunk he gets blacked out. Doesn’t realize what he’s doing. He cheated on me with a girl he didn’t even know at a party while I was at home with my babies. He went out with friends and made out with a random girl in the back seat. Next day he comes in crying that he did something bad. Told me he remembered vaguely but didn’t even know how that happened. After he did it he walked home instead of driving. Has begged for me to stay for his “honesty” and said he would enter AA. My question is… do ppl really get this messed up where they don’t know what they’re doing or my whole marriage was a lie ?