I give up

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I don’t care anymore. I’m not trying anymore. It was a lost cause to begin with. I’m old, we had the odds stacked against us and it was a far fetched idea from go. My husband and I wanted more kids and went so far as as to have his vasectomy reversed over a year ago. The irony in all of this is that when I was not 39 and could have kids easily, I didn’t appreciate or value that ability. I was annoyed every time I was pregnant. I am so thankful for my three teenagers, but I am so disappointed we made such a permanent decision at 25 years old. Word of caution: your feelings and circumstances can change drastically, overnight even. Don’t rush and make permanent solutions to temporary problems. I wish you all healthy happy pregnancies and I will rejoice with you when you conceive! Unfortunately for me, this chapter of my life is over. Baby dust to you all 😘😘😘😘