Too many soul ties?

TMI!

Recently, I was masterbating. I’ve gotten to the point where I don’t need to watch porn or read something stimulating, to help me climax. The troubling thing is that it was actually hard for me to get off, because I couldn’t focus on one guy. Actually, I kept getting flashbacks of three different guys. Neither of whom I was intimate with during the same time period, but, if I’m honest, were not even months apart. All three of the guys I was in monogamous relationships with. This is ultimately frustrated because the fact that I couldn’t focus on one experience with one person, made it difficult to get to climax. It made me wonder if I have unresolved feelings for all of these guys. I’ve been single for about 4 months but still have contact with 2/3 men. I actually had the urge to message both but didn’t, because I knew I was just horny and wanted attention. Is this a sign that I’m not emotionally available or am I just toxic?