I found out recently that i was getting booked in for my bilateral salpingectomy and i was so happy. I was done having kids. I feel completely fulfilled and happy with the two kids I do have. But my surgery is now 2 weeks away and I'm starting to feel sad. I'll never be able to give birth again. I'll never be able to wait until birth to know the gender, found out with my previouspregnancies before birth. I'll never be able to have a home birth. These are things I want to experience that I will no longer be able to. But I also don't want anymore children. I'm very conflicted by my feelings right now