Trauma TW sa n r@pe

Hi I’m really struggling at the moment. With intimacy. I just got into a new relationship and everything is good but my ability to engage in intimacy is affecting the physical side of the relationship. He’s really supportive and doesn’t make me feel bad about it but I feel bad about it. A few years ago I got SA’d and last year I got raped. And since the first incident I can not finish at all. Like I’ve never been able too orgasm because I feel my body restrict myself from letting go if that makes sense. Like no matter how much I want it or how much I’m turned on I cannot finish. I think I have a form of ptsd from past trauma. It’s my body’s way of protecting itself even tho I’m with someone I trust. I don’t know how to overcome this and I’m starting to really feel the affects of it. Not only that but I do struggle with physical touch. My partner is really into physical touch and I’m not so he has to like ask me to touch him hahaha. He’s super nice about it but I always wonder why I can’t I just be good at it or how can I change it. So really my question is.

Does anyone experience this?

Or do you know what I should do to overcome sexual trauma?

Any tips would be v much appreciated 🫶🏼🥹