Ideas for to acknowledge loss

I lost my first pregnancy back in December at 9.5 weeks (mmc - learned about it at 10w). The baby would have been due this Thursday (and of course my birthday is Friday — what timing). Despite my husband having been diagnosed with male factor infertility, I recently found myself pregnant again - I’m at 5w2d.

Any recommendations for how to acknowledge my loss this week? I’m so pessimistic about this current pregnancy - HGC levels are abnormally high and have been spotting - that it all feels overwhelming. All I would like to do is drink a bottle of wine and cry, but obvi that is off the table. 🤷🏽‍♀️