Feeling worthless

I constantly feel worthless to my partner. I live alone with my son and he lives with his mum so he normally stays at mine, I have to pick him up because he can’t drive and it consists of a ferry ride across a river and a 15 minute drive which I have to do both ways, he normally wants me to pick him up around 6pm and then I’m normally in bed by 9 because my son gets up at 7 and I like to relax before sleep.

Last night he came over at 6 and put something on the tv I didn’t wanna watch and refused to change it so I went upstairs at like half 8 after putting my son to bed at half 7, he then told me he was staying downstairs to watch, I agreed to let him watch it upstairs at about 10 because it’s the only way he would come bed and spend time with me. He had no interest in cuddling me all night and I woke up at 4 and laid awake an hour before tapping him to ask for a cuddle.

This morning we got up and I asked him to take the bin out and he refused so I angrily deep cleaned the entire kitchen and then felt like shit because I have low blood pressure due to my pregnancy so being on my feet a while makes me feel faint and weak so I asked if I could go upstairs and leave my son and he agreed, not even 3 minutes later he opened the gate to let my son up to come see me. I eventually went downstairs and got no response so I came to my sons room to read books and play with his toys.

He came up and said ‘my friend is picking me up from mine in an hour or two so can you drop me’ to which I just ignored him and he left on his own half hour later to go get a bus. But everytime he comes over at like 6pm and leaves around midday the next day and won’t do anything unless I say I’ve already planned a day out or something, I feel like just a stepping stone until he gets a better offer.

Maybe I’m overreacting because of pregnancy hormones but I’ve literally been crying the past hour because I feel like an option and not a priority.