I dont love myself… i am insecure 💔

Well before i had kids i had a goos body .. was skinny and alittle healthy…. The thing i hate tho is my nose its too big i always been insecure with it ever since i was in junior high it grew even more😞.. im scared of surgery and dont think i can get a nose job but i really want to get it… i have 2 kids , 1 is 2 in a half years old and the other is 1 so i had them back to back a year apart… welll my body got big everything 💔 my stomach doesnt go flat and down for some reason.. my arms and i have a double chin just everywhere everything i am insecure now.. idk where do I get motivation to workout.. i am eating lesss but idk why im still gaining weight .. my metabolism went LOWWWWW. Before i had kids my metabolism was high in 2019 i would lose weight quick.. now its not💔i need help confidence motivation.. i think im ugly now and fat nobody looks at me anymore.. i am a single mom sadly my baby daddy left us and i think i know why because i am fat obviously.. i dont feel attractive and every guy i seee at a store they just look away .. ughh help