Bad anxiety and intrusive thoughts during pregnancy. Is this normal?? Read post

Did anyone else suffer with bad anxiety and intrusive thoughts during their pregnancy? Not really anxiety related to your pregnancy directly but just about other things or things that may not even happen? The only thing I know to compare it to is how I felt after I had my first baby. Kinda like postpartum anxiety but during pregnancy. Like tonight it’s currently 5am and i can’t sleep because im laying here literally crying my eyes out having anxiety just imagining something happening to my bf and him dying and leaving me and our kids. I can literally feel the pain in my chest from it as if it’s actually happened, I spiral with thoughts like this then just pray to God begging him to not let anything happen to my family. I also have thoughts like this about my toddler and imagining something happening to him or god forbid my toddler and bf both and it just makes me physically sick to think about. I also have horrible vivid nightmares of things happening to them. I randomly picture my bf getting in a car crash on his way to or from work or my toddler drowning some how, I just can’t stop having thoughts like this. The other night I was awake crying and could hardly breathe because I just kept picturing someone breaking in and killing my bf and toddler in front of me. It’s like I randomly grieve my family or picture awful things happening to them even though they’re laying right next to me and perfectly okay😅 this always happens at night time when I’m trying to go to sleep. I’m 7 months pregnant with my 2nd and already had anxiety in general before I got pregnant but it’s been so much worse during this pregnancy. My doctor won’t prescribe me anything for it until after I have the baby so I’ve really been struggling trying to manage it on my own. I didn’t experience this during my first pregnancy, only postpartum but it feels like postpartum all over again but before the baby is even here😭 im so tired of just laying next to my family at night and crying while they sleep because of these thoughts. Im worried it’s going to get worse after I have the baby. Is this normal? Does anyone else think about things like this randomly and get this worked up over it? It’s driving me crazy