So hard to stop worrying-and so excited!

I have had two beautiful and healthy, baby boys, but also two miscarriages before each of them, and so this next time around, I’m obviously nervous. I can’t stop testing! It is so exciting to be expecting our third, and it is truly what we wanted, but I am very very early along at this point, and I basically just test every single day …

Anyone else do that? And wonder about every single cramp twinge etc?

I am honestly glad to be somewhat busy with the kids and work and stuff so that I just have less time to worry now. But I didn’t realize the anxiety never truly goes away :/