Backstory: My family is super homophobic, my mom especially. I have been this way forever. I was looking at other girls when I was like 6. I grew up with my mom though so I could obviously never say that. I grew up hating gay people and crying and praying that I would stop being like them. So fast forward. I'm an adult, I am just now coming to terms with the fact that this is who I am with the help of my lovely very accepting husband. He is the only one who knows. I still have a strained relationship with my mom because she is mean and has a ton of very strong opinions and is the type that can't be disagreed with. We do talk though. Today and almost every day I talk to her she says something negative about not straight cis people. Today it was that the world is promoting gayness to children and must be stopped and it goes against God. I so badly want to say to her "Hey Hi I'm bisexual" but at the same time I know she'll say something like "You're just saying that to upset me" or "That's a sin I'll pray for you" and she'll probably say something about it to the rest of my family who will again not take me seriously or say something hurtful. It takes me right back to 14 years old realizing what these feelingsmeant and feeling dusgusted with myself. I feel dirty. I just hate this.