I’m in a tough headspace 🥺

I feel distant from my boyfriend of 2 years. I’m 9 weeks pregnant with our baby, and after he questioned if this baby was his I felt closed off & distant.

We are long distance. I saw him in August straight off a period (a week off), I even had to show him my calendar to prove it was his. I logged all of our unprotected sex because we were actively trying. And idk, after going out of my way to prove to him that this was in fact his I feel hurt & lost a little love for him. I don’t talk about my symptoms or what’s going on with me anymore to him. I told him he doesn’t have to come to town for the ultrasound next week… he wasn’t even sure if he’d make it anyway.

Idk how to get out of this. I’m nervous as hell for my first ultrasound bcuz what if there’s no fetal growth or no heart beat. We had a miscarriage a year ago.