32- is this normal

32, no relationship ever, guys I’m interested in played me every single time. I live in a foreign country got my bachelors and work now. My apartment isn’t something u see on social media, it’s humble with basic necessities. While all my friends are married with kids or are pregnant. People back home are traveling or going out to restaurants or just visiting each other, while I come every night to silence at my home. I can’t splurge money on going out to eat at restaurants or even fast food places. The most I get to do is buy coffee from a coffee shop once a week. I feel like my studies and my years abroad don’t mean much. I haven’t been able to find friends here nor a romantic partner. Yes my friends and family aren’t with out their problems, I am aware of their issues they are going through. I just feel alone at 32 with no kids, no partner and struggling financially in a foreign city alone. I feel like a failure. I don’t feel like dressing up, nor doing the basic chores around house anymore. Am I thinking too much?

Edit: I say a foreign country because I grew up overseas all my life,my family still lives abroad and all my friends. I recently moved back to ‘my home country’ because of work. I hope that clarifies. If I go ‘home’ I cannot work legally. If I stay at the country I can legally work, I am alone.