Need some words of encouragement

Hello Ladies,

I am absolutely devastated right now. I miscarried a few weeks ago when I was about 5 weeks gestation. I know it was really early but I suffered massively from the emotional fall out of it. I still don’t feel quite right ?

My boyfriend, on the day we found out we lost our baby, downloaded tinder as I was ‘emotionally neglecting’ him. He said I drove him there. He was speaking to other girls and pretending I didn’t exist for a few weeks. He also relapsed on cocaine. Again this was my fault according to him, I couldn’t connect to him ?

I think it’s time for me to go. Please tell me this isn’t actually my fault. I’m only 24 so still young.

I’ve started a new job and it’s keeping me busy, but this seems too much for me. Can anyone give me advice ?

Thanks 💜